25 Questions (update)

Question 1: Do you have a pet? Yes I still have my amazing cat Beans.!


Question 2: Name three things that are physically close to you? My wonderful boyfriend nick, a glass of milk, fur pillow

Question 3: What's the weather like outside? There is a thunderstorm

Question 4: Do you drive? If so, have you crashed? Yes I drive but I have never crashed. Unless you count bumping into poles while trying to park.

Question 5: What time did you wake up this morning? I did not wake up in the morning time. I slept till 2 in the after noon. But I had stayed up until almost 7 in the morning.
 
Question 6: When was the lsat time you showered? Yesterday. Which reminds me I better get my butt in there so I stop stinking!
 
Question 7: What was the last movie you saw? Mr and Mrs Smith
 
Question 8: What does you last text message say? I got Chinese food, you would not open the door

Question 9: What is your ringtone? A Shins song.
 
Question 10: Have you even been to a different country? Yes I think the total count is 10 Canada, England, France, Germany, Austria, Greece, Italy, Switzerland, Netherlands, Belgium. I think that's it! (Since this is an update I recently added Denmark to the list.) Also there is another country that was supper small by Switzerland I went to just forgot the name.

Question 11: Do you like sushi? This answer for sure has not changed. Sushi is still my favorite even though I cannot eat as much as I used to. Now I want SUSHI.
 
Question 12: Where do you buy your groceries? I have started to become cheap so now I shop at Winco. Have to save as much money as possible for me to buy fun stuff. 
 
Question 13: Have you ever taken medication to help you fall asleep faster? Hell yeah sleeping is my favorite thing and when I cannot sleep I go crazy.
 
Question 14: How many sibling do you have? I do not have any blood siblings but I do now have two stupid ass step siblings.
 
Question 15: Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop? I still have my MacBook Pro 
 
Question 16: How old will you be turning on your next birthday? I will be turning 23 sooo crazy.
 
Question 17: Do you wear contacts or glasses? I wear both. When I go out I usually wear contacts. But lately I have been wearing my glasses a lot more because I have no been doing much in life.
 
Question 18: Do you color your hair? I have no colored my hair in many years. But my friend is in beauty school so I am planning on letting her color my hair soon.
 
Question 19: Tell me something you are planning on doing today? I had plans to go to the DMV but I doubt I will go. I kind of want to go play pool and have a bloody mary. 
 
Question 20: When was the last time you cried? Today. The last couple of days have been really hard. 
 
Question 21: What is your favorite pizza topping? Lots of sauce 
 
Question 22: Which do you prefer, hamburger or cheeseburger? For sure cheeseburger. I love cheese soooo much.!
Question 23: Have you ever had an all-nighter? Yes I have those nights are usually the best.
Question 24: What is your eye color? BROWN!!!
Question 25: Can you taste the difference between pepsi and coke? Yes pepsi is sweeter and WAY better. (I can still taste the difference but I actually like coke better now)

Rip Chloe

Today was one of the hardest days I have had in a while. My childhood dog that I have had since I was in the sixth grade passed away. Being an only child she was my best friend. The one I confided in and told all my secrets too. She comforted me when I was sad and celebrated with me when I was happy. 

Her death was very unexpected. She started getting sick on Friday. My mother wanted to wait through the weekend to see if maybe she would get better, and finally she let me take her to the vet today Tuesday 8-20-13. I knew in my heart that she was really sick and that things probably were not going to be ok. The doctors ended up taking x-rays and found a large tumor on her liver. Her liver was so swollen that they could not even see any of her other organs. With a tumor this size means she had been living with it for quite a while. This only shows how strong my Chloe bear really was. Just a couple days ago you would have not known anything was wrong with her. I guess that sometimes what happens is that they do not show signs till the very end. And most likely the mass had burst and that she had internal bleeding. 

My dog Chloe has been living with my mom since I moved out when I was 18. Since I live in a small apartment, and move quite a bit it was not fair for me to have her come with in a small apartment with no yard she could play in. I have not been able to see her as much as I would have liked because my mom has a new husband that him and I do not really get along. Which makes it hard for me to even go over to my mothers house.  I am just so thankful that I was able to spend the last two days with her and had time to say goodbye. 

While laying on the floor with her at the vet she still managed to wag her tail. Even with her being in so much pain she still tried to comfort me and tell me everything would be all right. 

Chloe was the sweetest dog with the biggest heart. I do not think she even knew how to be mean and she never growled once in her life. She always just kept that goofy smile on her face.

When the doctor came in and finally told us it was time. I was holding her head and kissing her face telling her how much I love her and how good she was. I could feel a part of energy enter into me wrapping her love in a caressing hug. Her pain was finally going away. I was able to whisper to her that I love her and to say hi to my dad and give him a big kiss. When she took her last breath it is this feeling I cannot explain. I was sad and crying she was gone but this warmth was wrapped around me, and all our happy memories rushed through my brain. 

I do not know if anyone will every read this blog. But I know there are other people out there that have lost someone they love. It may be a loved animal or it may have been  family member or friend. It is the strangest feeling of having so much sadness but also at the same time a sense of happiness knowing they are going to be with you forever. Their soul or whatever it might be that you believe in is with you forever. Apart of  Chloe is tucked safely in my heart and one day she will be there waiting when my time comes to leave this earth to give me a great big kiss and probably a ball in her mouth begging me to throw it. 

RIP Chloe 

2003-2013

This was the amazing sunset tonight. Just shows me heaven received a beautiful spirit today. And of course purple and pink was my princess favorite colors.

Going Cupcake crazy!

I have been kind of going cupcake crazy lately. I don't really eat the cupcakes I eat just give them away to friends and such. But cupcakes are so much fun to make and idk why but I love them! Anyways I have been cooking and baking yay. I love cooking my meals it just tastes so much better then eating tv dinners every night

This was the first cupcakes I ever made by scratch. They are Tres Les I forgot how to spell it, but it means three milk in spanish. They were so moist and delicious. They soaked up a whole tupperware dish full of the three milks. I didnt think it would be possible without making them soggy but it worked and they were delish!

Now for the coconut holy cow I have never tasted anything so good in my life. I might actually have to start selling these. The frosting I used was cooked sugar and egg whites with coconut extract. It is probably one of the best frostings I have ever had. I can't wait to make more types of cupcakes. I think the next ones I am going to make are these chocolate cherry ones. I think they are called black forest cupcakes named after the black forest in Germany. You know the forest in all of the fairytales such as snow white and hansel and gredel. Cool fact I visited that forest last summer. It totally had a fairy tale vibe! Maybe I will be able to find some pictures from the black forest =D

Stressed

It is that time of the school year where I start to feel the stress building up. I am letting stupid little things get to me. I just need to calm down. I will get through this semester I always do. But this is about the time you start wishing for a vacation. You get more tired at the end of the days and your weekend arn't filled with hanging out with your friends more like writing a couple essays and studying for a couple tests. Anyways in a couple months I am going to look at the ultrasound school I want to go to. Super nervous to move away for four years. And i know I am gunna come back to reno it is just going to be sad that everyone will be in a totally different place when I do finally come back. Thank goodness it is easier to keep in touch with people. Speaking of keeping in touch I found my best friend from Arizona. I moved to Reno in the 5th grade so it has been about that long since we talked. Gosh I wish I rememebered more from when I lived in Arizona. Maybe talking to her will spark more memories =) but it is nice to find long lost friends it is crazy how easy it is to get ahold and stay in touch with people now.


Ohh and I have found a new love in baking cupcakes I should have taken pictures of the ones I made last time but I plan on taking pictures of the new batch =) they should be delish. Ohhh and I found these cute little monster recipe ones. Soooo sweet! Wish I had someone to eat all these stuff I make because it takes me like a week to eat dinners I am and of course all the cupcakes.
When I start actually cooking meals again I will post pics of that too 

My Dad!

Yesterday was my dad's birthday. He would have been 55. He passed away when I was nine and I miss him so much. Wish we could have celebrated his birthday together. But days like yesterday I just appreciate all the moments I did have with him, and I know he is still looking after me and is with me every single day. So I just hope he had a wonderful birthday up in heaven =) Here are a couple pictures I found of my dad and I. And just a couple from when I was a little girl 

My dad and I at the airport.

My Aunt Jill and I. Maddie giving me kisses!

Horseback riding

I think I am going to start..

To listen to all my old cds. Staring with R.E.M gosh I miss buying cds I wonder how cheap they are. Maybe I will go out and buy some. I remember how awesome it was to get a new cd a ripping off that plastic and ahhhh. Mp3's are kinda lame plus I don't  have an ipod because mine was lame and died. Maybe that will be big adventure tomorrow. Where do they even sell cds anymore? I know not to go to Walmart cuz they edit all the good stuff out and by that I mean cuss words. 

Happy Meals

I got a freaking happy meal tonight. And let me tell you, they don't even have the cool boxes anymore, and I got a strawberry smelling spoon for my toy. What the hell happened with all the school shit you used to get in happy meals. OHHHHH and last time I went they gave me peanuts instead of granola for my parfiat, so i said to the dude tonight, hey make sure you give me gronola because i tried the whole peanut thing last time. And it did not work! Because peanuts and yogurt are just not a good mix for me. But atleast I got to eat it with the strawberry spoon they gave me...yeah thanks for the toy.