25 Questions (update)

Question 1: Do you have a pet? Yes I still have my amazing cat Beans.!


Question 2: Name three things that are physically close to you? My wonderful boyfriend nick, a glass of milk, fur pillow

Question 3: What's the weather like outside? There is a thunderstorm

Question 4: Do you drive? If so, have you crashed? Yes I drive but I have never crashed. Unless you count bumping into poles while trying to park.

Question 5: What time did you wake up this morning? I did not wake up in the morning time. I slept till 2 in the after noon. But I had stayed up until almost 7 in the morning.
 
Question 6: When was the lsat time you showered? Yesterday. Which reminds me I better get my butt in there so I stop stinking!
 
Question 7: What was the last movie you saw? Mr and Mrs Smith
 
Question 8: What does you last text message say? I got Chinese food, you would not open the door

Question 9: What is your ringtone? A Shins song.
 
Question 10: Have you even been to a different country? Yes I think the total count is 10 Canada, England, France, Germany, Austria, Greece, Italy, Switzerland, Netherlands, Belgium. I think that's it! (Since this is an update I recently added Denmark to the list.) Also there is another country that was supper small by Switzerland I went to just forgot the name.

Question 11: Do you like sushi? This answer for sure has not changed. Sushi is still my favorite even though I cannot eat as much as I used to. Now I want SUSHI.
 
Question 12: Where do you buy your groceries? I have started to become cheap so now I shop at Winco. Have to save as much money as possible for me to buy fun stuff. 
 
Question 13: Have you ever taken medication to help you fall asleep faster? Hell yeah sleeping is my favorite thing and when I cannot sleep I go crazy.
 
Question 14: How many sibling do you have? I do not have any blood siblings but I do now have two stupid ass step siblings.
 
Question 15: Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop? I still have my MacBook Pro 
 
Question 16: How old will you be turning on your next birthday? I will be turning 23 sooo crazy.
 
Question 17: Do you wear contacts or glasses? I wear both. When I go out I usually wear contacts. But lately I have been wearing my glasses a lot more because I have no been doing much in life.
 
Question 18: Do you color your hair? I have no colored my hair in many years. But my friend is in beauty school so I am planning on letting her color my hair soon.
 
Question 19: Tell me something you are planning on doing today? I had plans to go to the DMV but I doubt I will go. I kind of want to go play pool and have a bloody mary. 
 
Question 20: When was the last time you cried? Today. The last couple of days have been really hard. 
 
Question 21: What is your favorite pizza topping? Lots of sauce 
 
Question 22: Which do you prefer, hamburger or cheeseburger? For sure cheeseburger. I love cheese soooo much.!
Question 23: Have you ever had an all-nighter? Yes I have those nights are usually the best.
Question 24: What is your eye color? BROWN!!!
Question 25: Can you taste the difference between pepsi and coke? Yes pepsi is sweeter and WAY better. (I can still taste the difference but I actually like coke better now)

Rip Chloe

Today was one of the hardest days I have had in a while. My childhood dog that I have had since I was in the sixth grade passed away. Being an only child she was my best friend. The one I confided in and told all my secrets too. She comforted me when I was sad and celebrated with me when I was happy. 

Her death was very unexpected. She started getting sick on Friday. My mother wanted to wait through the weekend to see if maybe she would get better, and finally she let me take her to the vet today Tuesday 8-20-13. I knew in my heart that she was really sick and that things probably were not going to be ok. The doctors ended up taking x-rays and found a large tumor on her liver. Her liver was so swollen that they could not even see any of her other organs. With a tumor this size means she had been living with it for quite a while. This only shows how strong my Chloe bear really was. Just a couple days ago you would have not known anything was wrong with her. I guess that sometimes what happens is that they do not show signs till the very end. And most likely the mass had burst and that she had internal bleeding. 

My dog Chloe has been living with my mom since I moved out when I was 18. Since I live in a small apartment, and move quite a bit it was not fair for me to have her come with in a small apartment with no yard she could play in. I have not been able to see her as much as I would have liked because my mom has a new husband that him and I do not really get along. Which makes it hard for me to even go over to my mothers house.  I am just so thankful that I was able to spend the last two days with her and had time to say goodbye. 

While laying on the floor with her at the vet she still managed to wag her tail. Even with her being in so much pain she still tried to comfort me and tell me everything would be all right. 

Chloe was the sweetest dog with the biggest heart. I do not think she even knew how to be mean and she never growled once in her life. She always just kept that goofy smile on her face.

When the doctor came in and finally told us it was time. I was holding her head and kissing her face telling her how much I love her and how good she was. I could feel a part of energy enter into me wrapping her love in a caressing hug. Her pain was finally going away. I was able to whisper to her that I love her and to say hi to my dad and give him a big kiss. When she took her last breath it is this feeling I cannot explain. I was sad and crying she was gone but this warmth was wrapped around me, and all our happy memories rushed through my brain. 

I do not know if anyone will every read this blog. But I know there are other people out there that have lost someone they love. It may be a loved animal or it may have been  family member or friend. It is the strangest feeling of having so much sadness but also at the same time a sense of happiness knowing they are going to be with you forever. Their soul or whatever it might be that you believe in is with you forever. Apart of  Chloe is tucked safely in my heart and one day she will be there waiting when my time comes to leave this earth to give me a great big kiss and probably a ball in her mouth begging me to throw it. 

RIP Chloe 

2003-2013

This was the amazing sunset tonight. Just shows me heaven received a beautiful spirit today. And of course purple and pink was my princess favorite colors.