Rip Chloe

Today was one of the hardest days I have had in a while. My childhood dog that I have had since I was in the sixth grade passed away. Being an only child she was my best friend. The one I confided in and told all my secrets too. She comforted me when I was sad and celebrated with me when I was happy. 

Her death was very unexpected. She started getting sick on Friday. My mother wanted to wait through the weekend to see if maybe she would get better, and finally she let me take her to the vet today Tuesday 8-20-13. I knew in my heart that she was really sick and that things probably were not going to be ok. The doctors ended up taking x-rays and found a large tumor on her liver. Her liver was so swollen that they could not even see any of her other organs. With a tumor this size means she had been living with it for quite a while. This only shows how strong my Chloe bear really was. Just a couple days ago you would have not known anything was wrong with her. I guess that sometimes what happens is that they do not show signs till the very end. And most likely the mass had burst and that she had internal bleeding. 

My dog Chloe has been living with my mom since I moved out when I was 18. Since I live in a small apartment, and move quite a bit it was not fair for me to have her come with in a small apartment with no yard she could play in. I have not been able to see her as much as I would have liked because my mom has a new husband that him and I do not really get along. Which makes it hard for me to even go over to my mothers house.  I am just so thankful that I was able to spend the last two days with her and had time to say goodbye. 

While laying on the floor with her at the vet she still managed to wag her tail. Even with her being in so much pain she still tried to comfort me and tell me everything would be all right. 

Chloe was the sweetest dog with the biggest heart. I do not think she even knew how to be mean and she never growled once in her life. She always just kept that goofy smile on her face.

When the doctor came in and finally told us it was time. I was holding her head and kissing her face telling her how much I love her and how good she was. I could feel a part of energy enter into me wrapping her love in a caressing hug. Her pain was finally going away. I was able to whisper to her that I love her and to say hi to my dad and give him a big kiss. When she took her last breath it is this feeling I cannot explain. I was sad and crying she was gone but this warmth was wrapped around me, and all our happy memories rushed through my brain. 

I do not know if anyone will every read this blog. But I know there are other people out there that have lost someone they love. It may be a loved animal or it may have been  family member or friend. It is the strangest feeling of having so much sadness but also at the same time a sense of happiness knowing they are going to be with you forever. Their soul or whatever it might be that you believe in is with you forever. Apart of  Chloe is tucked safely in my heart and one day she will be there waiting when my time comes to leave this earth to give me a great big kiss and probably a ball in her mouth begging me to throw it. 

RIP Chloe 

2003-2013

This was the amazing sunset tonight. Just shows me heaven received a beautiful spirit today. And of course purple and pink was my princess favorite colors.